23 February 2025
I can’t continue like this.
I started to take a better care of my health. I was sinus rinsing, vapouring my face to relieve the pressure on my sinus. I stopped doing that, for no reason. Today woke up with headache. Got nausea.
I stopped taking the anxiety meds. Again, for no reason. And, again, like a clockwork the fussyness of my brain is choking me.
I stopped having breakfast, I mean dillidallying on it. Making the stomach situation bad.
Lunch is screwed.
Didn’t work on jewelry for a week.
I have been just cleaning shit.
Delaying on the project that would keep things stable, which I need - for the rest 2-3 months.
Stopped drinking enough water.
Didn’t wash hair, got acnes in the scalp.
Not moisturizing, now skin is fraying.
Didn’t apply for the unis. Didn’t reply back to the recruiters.
I am making this situation worse, cause being a victim is in my instinct. And I am comfortable doing that. I know that. But something gotta change.
I can fix this, by just doing shit. But dropping it brings the short term comfort.