trckpd

how am I here?

01 February 2025

A few things have changed since the last time I failed the New Year Resolution. 3 years to be specific.

The fear that I had during the start of 2022 has not changed. Same job, but now it has descended to a bad one.

Last year, I had 3 cancer~ish scare. And some more. Every single time, I heard biopsy, I thought - well finally I will lose those extra pounds.

I did lose the pounds, cause I stopped the sleep meds. I am just regularly chugging benzo.

Highest point is, I now have all the stuff I never knew existed. The most exciting thing now is finding a new online shopping website. So, yeah I raked up huge debt, also paid off. But my god, I have stuff. And dresses. Some of the dresses don’t even have enough fabric, but I have them. Those are for aspirational.

I have 2 of everything. You name it, I have two of those. I have two of the things you can’t name. Nowadays, Amazon can’t excite me. Cause I have 2 of everything they have.

I have not read a single book. I have read innumerable AITA posts though.

I know of schizotok, galvanized square steel and pig show. Also, filler migration - that’s important.

On the hand, I have gotten better at piercing, polishing and soldering.